August 2011 - How Time Flies

This is the first time I have written anything in here in almost a year. Time flies when you're having fun!

You could say fun, but a lot of "not so fun" things have happened in this year also. I'm currently waiting on a pot-noodle like thing cooking up, so while I wait I might as well update this wee thing seeing as my attention was brought to it earlier. I'll mix it up a little though.

I started college and performed the musical Chess with my classmates which was incredible. I went to London with the college and seen 'Shrek the Musical' before it was even released, and 'Betty Blue Eyes', which I slept through most of. I also went to this wee venue in the East end and watched a play called 'Uncle Vanya', that was intense to say the least....although it was done amazingly and I actually felt like a fly on the wall in some family home. I performed 'Little Shop of Horrors', and was lucky to be cast as the lead role, Audrey. That show in itself was an emotional journey as I finally recieved the chance to see what being an actress is really like....tough! But I got by and believe that as a whole, we put on a good show. I got back with an ex who yet again became an ex (we're still good friends though). I stayed in touch with a single friend from high-school who I see every now and again. I encouraged my best friend Angela to apply for Coatbridge College, which she did and I now look forward to spending the year with her at college. I went to few parties, although each and every one of them I became legless and enjoyed myself as much as one can enjoy ones self. I mourned over not being able to go out and party legally yet, as I would really like to go out a night in the town and see what real fun is. I made some really good friends at college whom I'd like to think I'll stay in touch with for a while after I finish. I also made some good and proper enemies at college, particularly with a certain lecturer. You know what they say, keep your friends close and your enemies closer........he can get to f***. I took my first shot of alcohol and believe me, there will be many more to come. I covered a male friends boxers in chocolate eclair, and these were his underwear for the next day too! I left home and now stay with my aunt. I got kept on as a permanent member of staff at Lush (which is becoming more of a job than anything now). I completed my first year at college and passed every exam with only one re-sit all in. I cried a lot over useless things. I realised that getting on the West-End is not the be all and end all of everything. I played a lot of the Sims 3 and started many a new game. I picked up crocheting for the first time in 7 years and have successfully completed a wee winter hat. I got through to the next level of a "major" talent contest in the UK, which I've decided to not go through with as it's a money making sham................

All in all... It's been a busy and eventful year. I now look forward to starting my second year at college where I will complete my HND in Musical Theatre and hopefully find myself a place in another school to do my degree next year. I also look forward to a year of eyeing up boys and making no attachments to anything other than college and work. I must say though, reading over that last paragraph I realsie that I've become fairly cynical. I don't think that's a bad thing right?

Anyway, until the next time I think about this website,
Over and Out xx

:D

As I said in one of my previous posts in august, I applied for a Christmas temporary job in my FAVOURITE shop, Lush! Unlike I expected, I was called for a trial shift which afterwards I was given the job. So their you have it. I am now a  temporary LUSH employee! 


Also the true colours of college are starting to burst all over the place. I know who and who not to trust, and I am getting so much work thrown at me and money taken from me left right and centre....but I'm still singing, acting and dancing everyday!! So I can't complain, and it will all be worth it in the end :)


Also, look up Stacey Tollan on you tube and see all the recent videos of me singing in Lanarkshire's Got Talent if you wish :)


Goodbye for now ;)

Little Message.

Love can make you or love can break you,
 but NEVER allow love to hold you back
 from being the very best that you can be,
 or else you will find yourself living
 in the shadow of love.

Update ;)

OMG! It has been so long since I took any time whatsoever to even consider writing something here! So hello! How you been?! Seeing as I haven't posted in a while, lots of stuff has went on so this could either be one insanely long post, or I could do it as two separate ones....but we'll see.

Ok, so you know that I complained here like, a lot about the state my laptop was in? And how it never run how I wanted it too? Well I finally got a new one! And it works perfectly for now and has a built in web-cam and speaker! For any average person that is not exciting, but I got sick of having that rubbish web-cam which always gave my poor old laptop extreme lag.

I'm sitting here just now trying to remember what has actually happened in the last while. I know a lot has, but now that I'm trying to think what they are, I can't remember! Oh know this though, I am officially never returning to school as I am a full time college student. Yip! I am a student! The next stage of my life may commence! And now that I have a college course, I may also have a job very very soon. I have a trial for lush   next week as they liked what they seen of me at the recruitment night earlier on. And if you know me well, then you also know that I love lush as much as I love Musical Theatre, so this is a big deal. Not only will I have a good wee weekend job, but it will be a job that I am genuinely passionate about. BUT I DON'T WANT TO JYNX ANYTHING YET! so forget I mentioned it.

Oh yeh, I got exam results too. I was actually quite pleased with them as I got a B for music, a B for drama and a C for english; so that was the results that I was hoping for all year. What really annoyed me about it though was that I failed biology. I mean I knew straight after the exam that I had, but that one subject is the one I concentrated most on when I studied whereas I could have spent more time on the other subjects and got better results in those. Also; although I failed, I really do know a lot about biology. Ask me any question about respiration or photosynthesis and I can give you the correct answer. Its just that in the exams, all the simple questions are disguised within 3 paragraphs  and maybe 4 graphs, therefore you spend most of you're time and worry trying to work out what they are actually asking you.

During the summer me and my best friends went camping! That was a crazy trip as every single thing we did was out in the open air. We lit a fire with a splint; we built our own tent; we chopped wood with an axe; we also had to pee outside! That was a fun wee trip and I'm pretty sure we will do it again sometime. I actually had two camping trips this summer as just last weekend I went to the Scottish Young Carer's Festival with all my young carer friends and we camped out their. That weekend was also immense as we had massage's, drama workshops, a silent disco and even a chance to speak to some politicians such as Shona Robinson about how they could help make the lives of young carer's easier.

When I started college I recieved a bursary, and no joke, I am spending it as though it is water! But I'm enjoying myself and still keeping enough to be able to live, and I'm also buying myself lots of new clothes and shoes and un-necessary jackets. BUT I'M FEMALE! Therefore I am allowed to indulge.

Anyway, I can't actually think of much more to say. That wasn't as long as I expected it to be to be honest. I  have either forgotten everything, or there really just wasn't that much too talk about to begin with. So I shall let you go and continue to read all the other blog's on this site.

Enjoy the rest of your day ;)  x

Ok my blogs are always long and go on forever, but this one wont as I just want to mention one crazy thing that happened yesterday. I may go onto 2 things if I remember another one but it all depends on how my memory runs.

 So yesterday me and my best friend in the whole world Caitlin took a trip into glasgow. We went to see Eclipse in the cinema and teased ourselves in some shops that we could not afford. But the think that I'm here to say is that, on the way to our platform at the train station, the guy who checked our tickets said "Right Stacey"........

Sorry but I have never met this guy in my life. I had nothing on me which sported my name, Caitlin hadn't recently said my name, and nothing about me screamed that my name was Stacey. I also did not tell him what my name was...he just sorta, knew. So yeh, thats the one weird thing that happened yesterday that has creeped me out a little.

CHANGE!

Ok this is a new blog (of course) but it's not in the same style as my last 3 have been. In fact, it's nothing like any of the 3 because this unlike the rest, it has no actual subject or topic. Nup, this is just one of my plain ordinary blogs which I used to write every week on bebo and loved to do. So before I begin I will warn you...you may get bored. Then again you may not. It all depends on yourself, but if you like to read biographies and diary like things then this is what it will be like. Just a re-telling of the happenings in my life.
I actually began to write blogs like this because I always tell people the exact same stories, and it feels like they're being told over and over again in conversations...whereas if I blog about it then everybody who is interested can read about it without me personally having to tell them and bore myself to death. That way I can keep my stories fun and interesting. Another reason however is that I have a terrible memory, so if I write down everything thats happened to me on the internet, then I can go back and re-live my memories for a bit. I could always write about it in a proper diary like most people, but I am not most people and that takes way to long to do. So on with whatever I have to say....

Right I will begin with mentioning the absolutely amazing holiday which I just returned from last week. My mum has always dreamt about going on a cruise, so my dad considered that he might as well just book one while he can. I tell you now...if you ever get the opportunity to go cruising, GO! Except I recommend going fully inclusive because the drinks onboard are extorcionate. We did that, and honestly, we were treated like royalty all week. Whenever we got thirsty we just waved our hands at the waiter/waitress and they would come over straight away, take our order (which every time was a different cocktail) and then bring it over with some pritzels and crisps for extra. Also whenever we were out of our cabin, their would be a cleaner in cleaning out everything and tidying the place up. Sometimes right enough he would put something in a totally different place that where it was before, so sometimes you would go back and think you're stuff had been stolen. Apart from how we were treated, I could have easily mistaken where we were as being the queens palace because absolutely everything was stunning. The staircases were beautiful, the lifts, the reception, the lounges...even th nightclub was something totally different yet beautiful. You can see a picture of the main lounge named the Tiger Bar somewhere in this blog. So yeeeeeh....we got off at a few stops, which I wont go on all day about because they were all totally different. In order, we boarded the MSC Magnifica in Venice , we travelled to Bari, then Izmir, then Istanbul, Dubrovinik and then back to Venice where we stayed for 2 nights before returning to scotland. I could go on all day about the holiday but I can sumh it up in one word, it was FANTASTIC.

Yeh so 2 days after the cruise I got lucky and went a day trip to Blackpool with 2 of my best friends in the whole wide world. It was a good day except some of the rides made me feel sick and we had english "chavs" wanting to start a fight with us over nothing...sorry but I'm not that type of person. But when I came back from their I was shattered, and my dad informed me that he had just booked another holiday to costa del sol. Yeh I'm thinking the same as you probably, he had gone crazy. I actually didn't believe him but it turned out he did. He paid the deposit and then the next day decided that yip...he had gone slightly crazy, so he cancelled it. Funnily enough it wasn't that big a deal because the thought of going another hotel holiday straight after a cruise hadn't excited me in the slightest and I am quit happy with the concept of home for a while.

Oh, I meant to mention...while I was on the cruise I met an Italian guy called Eddy, or should I say he met me...he spoke not one word of English so I had no interest in him at all, and he had to get a translator over to tell me everything he was trying to tell me in some sort of sign language. That was amusing but their was plenty of other males their that I had my eye on whilst away. I must say that Italians are pretty darn something. Some of them did speak english but only a little, but that didn't matter as they were good to look at from a distance.

I'm quite excited for tomorrow as I'm off to see Eclipse in Glasgow! I have waited since november for this!! To be honest I planned on reading the book again before going but it takes me forever to read and I never once got around to reading more than 13 pages.

I've been kinda wondering how you manage to get more views on this site, I mean I love it and all that, but it doesn't seem to do much in the sense of publicity. I do however post links on twitter now and again so all my followers their can read my blogs if they feel like it, but i dunno exactly. If anybody could possibly comment on a way to get some more followers and views then you would be more than welcome.

Anyway I have run out of interesting things to say...I will be back soon with some more stuff to write, but for now I say Chow!

Exams

At the moment the Scottish SQA exams are finally drawing closer to an end. I personally am pleased about this as I only have 2 left in the next 2 upcoming days, (Higher Biology and Higher Music) but it doesn't take stress off at all thinking that they are nearly over. I mean, fair enough I don't have to do any more study until after the summer holidays again (not like I (or many Scottish students I know) study all too often anyway) , but we need to wait until august to get our results. The months are going to drag in! I always tend to find that when the exams are close like they are just now, I am calm. I think I've made a clear point their anyway as instead of studying, I am sitting on the internet writing a blog. Where is the justice in that? But when august does come I feel like crying (last year I did cry), dreading what my exam results may be and going over and over each and every possibility.

But the point which I want to make here is that Scottish students (I say Scottish students because I dont exactly know many students from other countries and it is only a generalisation) don't have a good attitude towards exams at all. Of course you have the few who need to achieve certain results to get accepted into certain courses of higher education, so they will study until their brains explode. But even at that, some of those students who dont study often still manage to get the same sort of results as those who will not give their brains a rest. It's all to do with the different ways some people's brains work. Mine for example works in a way where if I get taught something which I am realy interested in, i WILL remember it for a long time, no matter what the subject is, whereas others only pick the subjects which they need for their higher educational courses therefore they have to spend hours studying to force all this boring information into their long term memories.

I can't exactly say that with the little study I have done throughout the year I will pass all 4 of my Higher courses, but from prelim results and the way the last 3 of my exams have went so far, I am pretty hopeful that I have done better than my amount of study should allow.

I partly blame my lack of study on the run-up to exams on my college placement. I have an un-conditional meaning that no matter what my exam results are, I get into my course. So this has subconsciously discouraged me from thinking I need to do well, because I know that I dont need to do well. Even if I fail each and every single one of my exams I will still be able to do the same college course. But I am on of those lucky people as my course (HND Musical Theatre) concentrates more on the physical aspects, not to mention a little talent, and does not actually require any academical skills whatsoever.

This then brings me to my point that exam results ARE NOT the be all and end all of everything. Yes they may help you look good and smart, but it is possible to get where you want to be without having a piece of paper by the end of your school years to prove that you are good enough. If you have what it takes to do something then you need to show people that you have a desire to do that, and you also have to be passionate about it. If this is the case then you will always win.